8th June – Post

The physical post came, but it has been left unopened as that is the safest most sensible thing to do. 

The Facebook post, the flash back, the same feeling, the memory of the beginning of the end: the hollow feeling; the insecurity; the instinct to self sabotage and push away, to look for reassurance that the worst won’t happen by offering it as a suggestion to be refuted. The feeling of inevitability as the cycle repeats. (It’d be nice if I could have a more positive reaction to the information – break the cycle.)

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